Dear 16 Year Old Olivia,
You're beautiful. Don't let anyone tell you different. You're intelligent if you just put your mind to it. You can pass that math test tomorrow. The one you've been dreading and think you can't pass.
Don't go to that party. It's nice to be surrounded by friends, but you don't need to get drunk to do it. It's fun... I know... But, your mom and dad worry about you. They do. Mom knows what you're up to. That's why she keeps texting to check on you.
Don't cry over him. He doesn't deserve your tears. You're gonna find true happiness someday. Believe that. I know your heart is breaking... I know it hurts and feels like it will never end... I know the pain... The agony... The never-ending anxiety. But, you're brave. Braver than you know. Your strength is beautiful. I've seen it. Now you just need to see it.
Tell your parents you love them more. Stop arguing with them. They're only trying to protect you. I promise you they're not against you. They just don't want you to make the same mistakes they did.
Be happy. Stop worrying so much about what people think of you. You're something special... Unique, like your grandfather used to say. Your smile makes others smile. Your laugh makes others laugh. Your caring soul makes others want to care more.
Smile. Right now. You know you want to. Just be happy. Keep caring so much, even when it hurts. And never forget how beautiful you are.
21 Year Old Olivia
We've all been through it. You fall so head over heels in love with a man that doesn't share the same feelings.
Every sign was there. Maybe I read everything wrong. Or maybe... Just maybe... You felt the same way I did... But, why wasn't I good enough to pursue? I did everything right. I was nice, genuine, treated you like a man should be treated.
So why didn't you pick me? Why didn't you choose to love me? Was it because I came off too strong? I do that sometimes, because I care and I want you to know and see how much I care.
When I realized you would never love me the way I loved you, I put a guard up. The walls are so high and so thick that no one can get through.
I was numb for a while... Broken... Hurt... Devastated... My heart broke for days. I cried... Hard... Every day for a while. I felt like my heart was ripped from my chest. That's how you made me feel. You did that to me. You caused that pain.
But, my wounds healed and I'm still here, standing tall with my head held high. I'll get through this just like I have every other heartbreak. You were a chapter in my book, and I'm moving on to the next.
Thank you. Thank you for opening my eyes to realize how truly strong I am. I'm a strong person. I've always been strong, but your heartache brought realization to my eyes, and now I truly know my strength as a woman.
Tomorrow is a new day. And I'm happy to be alive. I'm happy... Truly happy. Every day is a gift... And your pain was only temporary.
—Author Olivia Howe
Olivia Howe. 25 years old. Author, Blogger, and Reviewer. 3 cats. 1 dog. TV Show fanatic. Lover of all things makeup, animals, books, The Bachelor, blogging, sloths and salads.