a letter to my 16 year old self

Dear 16 Year Old Olivia, 

You're beautiful. Don't let anyone tell you different. You're intelligent if you just put your mind to it. You can pass that math test tomorrow. The one you've been dreading and think you can't pass. 

Don't go to that party. It's nice to be surrounded by friends, but you don't need to get drunk to do it. It's fun... I know... But, your mom and dad worry about you. They do. Mom knows what you're up to. That's why she keeps texting to check on you. 

Don't cry over him. He doesn't deserve your tears. You're gonna find true happiness someday. Believe that. I know your heart is breaking... I know it hurts and feels like it will never end... I know the pain... The agony... The never-ending anxiety. But, you're brave. Braver than you know. Your strength is beautiful. I've seen it. Now you just need to see it. 

Tell your parents you love them more. Stop arguing with them. They're only trying to protect you. I promise you they're not against you. They just don't want you to make the same mistakes they did. 

Be happy. Stop worrying so much about what people think of you. You're something special... Unique, like your grandfather used to say. Your smile makes others smile. Your laugh makes others laugh. Your caring soul makes others want to care more. 

Smile. Right now. You know you want to. Just be happy. Keep caring so much, even when it hurts. And never forget how beautiful you are. 

Love, 
21 Year Old Olivia